Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Crabby

Crabby. That's what I've been the past few days, Avoiding the blog. Not really wanting to do anything. And certainly not dealing with anything - just letting things go. Crabby & frustrated & just... really crabby. I think SP might be having late meetings at work on purpose... or maybe he's just saying that...?!!

We haven't done any exciting food things lately. This past weekend, after our hair appointments, we had a quick lunch at Panera (our usual: asiago cheese bagel with plain cream cheese for me; whole wheat with vegetable cream cheese for him).

We also went to SP's birthday dinner with his family. He chose Il Pizzaiolo in Mt. Lebanon. I ordered the same pizza we had last time (prosciutto & arugula). SP had a very tasty chicken piccata. His dad really enjoyed a veal dish. Z had some gnocchi, Googer had a seafood filled pasta, ZF had spaghetti & meatballs, and SP's mom had an eggplant dish.

I didn't take any photos - partly because the place was crowded and my purse was wedged under the table and I didn't feel like trying to pull out my camera and partly because it was my first time seeing SP's mom since she moved back to Pittsburgh. Since she finds fault with pretty much everything about me, I didn't feel like adding fuel to the fire. "Can you believe she took photos of food in the restaurant? A food blog? Why the heck does she do that?" At least that's how I imagine she'd react.

Sunday we made the Lamb & Eggplant Moussaka that we made in January 2010. I can't believe it's been over a year since we made it because it's so darn tasty! It just didn't seem like it was worth a new post since I took lots of photos last time.Then there's the weather. Hard to believe that last week there were a couple of 60 degree days.Monday we planned to go out to dinner and use SP's Big Burrito Birthday Coupon, but if you live in Pittsburgh, you know what this past Monday was like. Monday's newspaper said 'little to no snow accumulation.' Just in case you can't see it in the above photo:Ha. Here in Robinson we got 8+ inches of snow. The ice pellets starting pinging off the windows at 2 pm. And then the snow started around 3:30 pm. And the grass and walkway and driveway were completely covered by 5 pm. So we cancelled our reservation and re-scheduled for next weekend. Monday's dinner? A frozen pizza for me and a frozen quesadilla for SP. With a side of this:Between his mom's return to town and the ensuing chaos/drama/vitriol against us plus the stress of starting a new job plus the stress of the upcoming home improvement projects, SP's stomach is in turmoil and he suspects his ulcer is making a comeback. So he stopped at Costco one night and stocked up on medicine.

We didn't even bake anything this past weekend. My dessert this week has been chocolate whoopie pies from the Giant Eagle Market District bakery.

While I am busy being crabby, I am also obsessing over 'Project New Flooring' and the assorted additional home improvements. As in freaking out over the cost, can we afford it, should we afford it, is this a wise decision, why the heck does this cost so much, maybe we should just move. I'm 99.9% sure I'm driving SP crazy with my obsessing over this project. I'm driving myself insane with it - -it's even invading my dreams. I need to just decide and then go with it and not second guess myself or worry. Easier said than done.

So that's what's going on - or rather, not going on - in our kitchen recently.

I am planning to bake SP a birthday cake all by myself later this week, so stay tuned for that, and we have reservations for Sunday at a Big Burrito restaurant neither of us has been to in 4+ years, so that's exciting. And plans for a Saturday dinner out.

Hopefully, the snow will be gone by this coming weekend. It took SP 2 hours to shovel the driveway this morning. Fun. He didn't bother with the walkway yet. I know I live in Pittsburgh and it's winter and Pittsburgh gets snow in winter, but when I moved back here out of necessity (I had just finished grad school and had no money and my only option for free housing was with family in Pittsburgh), my health issues were not as bad as they are now. I am really affected by cold temperatures and of course, the wheelchair does not roll through snow! It was in January 2002 and February 2004 - winter time - that I had the most significant declines in my health situation (broken hip and then broken femur). By February, I'm always feeling very beaten down and weakened by winter, so I start to get a little... crabby when the snow and cold keep on coming. I know, I could move south (but I hate humidity) or west (where they're going to run out of water and there's not much green and it's super hot & dry) but... Pittsburgh is where I grew up, where I returned to after 7 years away, and where SP & I have made a life together. Neither of us really wants to move away (though it is occasionally discussed) and we do love this city and everything it has to offer.

Hopefully I'll pull out of my crabby funk soon and start tackling some new and exciting dishes in the kitchen and planning some trips to 'new to us' restaurants!!

5 comments:

  1. Ugh. I so totally feel you - there's someone in my life who finds fault with everything I do, no matter how hard I try and it's a very stressful situation. It really makes life miserable to be around that person.
    I hope it gets better for you soon, and hopefully we'll have some more of that 60-degree weather soon!

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  2. Hang in there Nicole! I certainly know the winter funk feeling you speak of. I don't know if I am in a full on funk but I just feel like I am going through the motions in winter, desparately awaiting the spring/summer. Sigh.

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  3. I too am in a funk. I was doing SO WELL last week with the sunshine and warm weather. I need to get through the balance of this week and I think I will have some type of direction.

    Sorry to hear about your MIL. Keep your head high, you have quite a bit of awesome to be proud of. I consider you a heck of a lot more resilient than me. If all else fails, treat her to that seafood buffet in Homestead, you know, the one that is SO GOOD ;)

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  4. Sending warm thoughts. If I were you I'd pile up under a big comforter and wait for the daffodils!
    Hugs!

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  5. Thanks everyone for the encouraging messages - I keep telling myself that spring is just around the corner! Plus, Phil the Groundhog said it'd be an early spring! (OK, so maybe this past Monday's 8+ inches of snow means he was wrong, but...)

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